fuck you, fuck everybody who goes around spreading tales about my blog.
stop it, please. its really none of your business what goes on in my life. and to spread my life around makes you the fuckiest bitch alive.

stop it.

hey darlings/babies/bitches/honeys/whatsoever you want to be called, this is gonna be the last post in this journal. i am setting up a new one, and of course i'm reluctant to do so. but my parents have been checking up on my history and links and stuff.
even if they're my parents, i think i still need some privacy- at least a blog that allows me to rant w/o them knowing what's up.
so, last post. i'll update those people who i think is worthy of being updated. eh, no, i won't be tagging. cause everyone will know.
some random stuff for today!


dance was fantastic man! me and huilin were totally rocking it out. i havent been to the dance practices for as long as i remember, and since it was the end of midyrs, and i have to support huilin, so i went. 
by the 2pm, we already got a routine to one stanza of hyori's "shall we dance".
then the guys came, and i got a little embarassed cause i still don't like to dance in front of people that i'm not comfortable with. but i've got to overcome that. and i did lah, but not fully cause i was still aware of the guy's existence. if they were observant, they'd notice i'd always keep my back to them. i'd rather die than let them see my face.
huilin and i click, and its so obvious. we got a routine like damn fast when for few weeks, there wasn't any at all. (no thanks to ****)
there's lots of info regarding that but i don't want to sound critical again. it hurts the ears.

then aft that i went to meet my mother for dinner.
and know what she asked me? she asked if i watch porn, and before i could answer, she said, i know you watch. and proceeded to tell me about why i shouldnt watch and stuff.
i couldnt bring myself to say it to her face lah, so awkward.
but the truth is, i don't even like porn. its like disgusting and weird. and i am sick of it. since my mother reads my blog anw, i can say everything out here. (:
and plus hor, the only reason why i dont agree with pre-marital sex is cause i find it disgusting.
SO ITS A BENEFIT TO ME LEH.
and i definitely wont get addicted because it is SO GROSS. omg, im already getting shivers.

okay, done with that.
gonna go do my new blog again.
clearing out my whole history. NO MISTAKES THIS TIME.

choir prac tmr again. whalau, can they just kill me instead?



CIAO!

choir drained all my energy, plus a trip to vivo made me feel less than anything but zonked and pissed. luckily i still had my treat of ben&jerrys. (:

there's this particular guy who's only fivteen, and eh (apparently luh) people found his photography really gorgeous. so i decided to check him out. hm, not bad really but it doesn't attract me much. maybe cause he doesn't shoot the style of photographs that i love.
yeah, i alrdy can hear people saying, "aiyoh, you like those black black emo emo one. all is hair cover or half face cannot see."
NO LOR, i strongly deny. all i know is i love photos with really intense contrast (but without so much saturation). i also don't know how to explain. maybe you should just go see my photoblog.

so anw, you can go check this guy out. oh, he has a talent. yes, for sure.
http://artofshuenalogy.deviantart.com/

oh, there's this two that i particularly like though: 'S U B M I T-' and 'Tunnel Vision'.
it's cool ((:


okay, now to emo stuff and weird endless rantings. scroll down if you don't wanna read.
(anw, choir refers to TPJchoir)




okay, im done with the emo stuff above. and im actually not done yet. ive got so many more things to complain about, particularly about how the p actually suggest "why not sunday?" in regards to the issue with tmr's practice. yeah, smart uh?


so today aft the last paper, the nais and me went off to the beach for some self-indulgence.
and what we did at the beach is suuuuuper retarded. omg, so retarded you cannot believe it. we took off our shoes, and went running into the water and stuff. we started screaming and yelling, splashing water at each other, taking photos, throwing stones and seeing who's the furthest, making footprints in the sand and singing songs at an extremely wrong pitch(okay, that was just me). i only knew, the time there was spent really well, and i really enjoyed it. plus, i was a totally different person at that beach. where on earth would you see me being so unglam, running around chasing people and yelling?
OHOH, naini got touched by a sea ghost. or at least that's what naima say. naini says got a hand grab her foot. and that was the end of our stay in the water. freaky. *shudders*

wahlau, then it rained. so we hid in the pavilion and this group of uncouth, disgusting men with horrible singlet tan lines sat opposite us, and was pointing and laughing at us. eee, i think they really never look into the mirror.
then all of us got hungry, right naipok???
so we braved the storms, the thunder, and the.... storms, to get to downtown east to have our kfc lunch. mmm, (((: heaven. and we were so sticky and salty this fly was attracted to us. wah, damn irritating.
aft the lunch, the nais had their drama and me my choir, so we went back to school. OH, i bought this super nice green day tee and naima a really gorgeous yellow tee with a jap girl on it. really its nice. even me, who has super weird taste in clothes liked it. i guess i can go shopping with them. ((:

and the rest you know.
so now, photos (:



one photo lacking, gotta get it from naipok.
vid coming up,

oh , i am so disgusted. so so so so disgusted.

1) Would you hug your ex again?
yeah, why not.

2) How many girlfriends/ boyfriends
have told you they loved you?
one.

3) How many girlfriends/ boyfriends
did you actually love?
none.

4) Have you ever loved someone so
much that it hurt?
nope.

5) Have you ever made a boyfriend or
girlfriend cry?
don't think so.

6) Are you happier single or in a
relationship?
i would prefer the latter, but being single has its benefits too. (:

7) Have you ever been cheated on?
eh yeah.

8) Have you ever told someone you
loved them and didn't mean it?
yeah. makes me sound like im a hypocrite.

9) Have you ever had your heart
broken?
yeah, quite a lot of times.

10) If you have a chance go back in
time and change things, would you?
maybe, why not.

11) Do you still love your ex?
of course not.

12) Do you believe that you are a
good girlfriend/boyfriend?
no. im quite sure.

13) Have you dated someone who was
not good to you?
):

14) Have you dated someone older
than u?
(:

16) Do you believe everyone deserves
a second chance?
technically yeah, but sometimes you don't have the heart to give someone else a second chance cus you hate him/her so much.

17) Do you Believe in love at first
sight?
nope.

20) Ever want to get married?
its kinda a must right, or you'll look bad.
oh and i wanna wear a wedding gown, so prettay!

22) Ever kissed your friend's
boyfriend or girlfriend?
what? siao.

23) If given a chance, would you
like to have your ex back?
i don't know.

24) Does anybody have a tattoo with
your name on it?
OH HO HO! I WISH MAN!




'heroes' cast is coming to singapore. love love <3
and all three of my hotties are coming!!


CIAO!

finally, the hardest of all papers have ended. and although there's till many more papers to go, exams no longer seemed as much of a burden like yesterday. yeah, it's amazingly weird.

general paper was pretty just all-the-way thing. it was only essay, and i only knew about it in the morning. but luckily i couldn't care less. the questions weren't easy, but it wasn't challenging either. i don't think im gonna get good grades. oh, i don't even know if i will pass it but fingers crossed.
but the way i write essays is like what i say, all-the-way. i choose one question that seem to have the most points, and then start babbling. my introduction is probably the suckiest of the entire essay because it has got no link whatsoever. i just continue writing and writing and writing until all the points i've thought of has been used, and then conclusion which is just as sucky. that, is what i mean by all-the-way. because there is no stopping, and no pausing to rethink the question or think of new points. yeah, it isn't a very efficient way but i'm just used to it.
anyway, i still had 15mins extra at the end. looking around, everybody was still buried in their essay so i felt awkward. so i pretended to be still working on my essay although i was actually doing word count. 979 words, eh, isn't that over the word limit?
ah, whatever.

after that, the nais and me went on the the school library to cram some more econs stuff into our head.
initially we were all working real hard, until at some point, me and pok just decided we couldn't take it anymore. it was almost impossible to cram anything else in cause our heart's not into it anyway. so we both went to eat. (: sweeeeeeet.

econs paper was kind of a killer, although i don't think it's really that stressing. or maybe it's just because i don't give a shit about it. everybody was like "oh my, so hard. so hard!!!" there wasn't enough time, or there would be more people who can complete their paper. what's the point of having an exam if the candidates are limited to a specific time? isn't exam supposed to be a test of whether we have the information in our head? by limiting the time, the exam is then inaccurate on basing whether the student did study or not.
i think the education people has seriously different views from us. generation gap, tsk lah.

aft the econs paper, the nais and me (w/o pok) went bubbling. oh, it was so weird with the bbtea guy. i don't know how to explain. and obviously, the bubbling trip was amusing and hilarious, as usual. we're just retarded that way, but im glad i have them in my class. we click, and that's about the most important thing.

haiyo, because of this stupid pattaya trip, i have choir practices on the LAST DAY OF EXAMS. this is absurd lah. i don't know how other choir people can actually want to go to choir practices. and i don't know how they got their passion for this choir. well of course dmnchoir is an exception cause although i still don't like going to practices, the passion and love still remains. for this choir, i have to drag my lazy fatass just to attend practices. but i know lah, if i want to go to pattaya, i've got to put in effort too. after all, its a competition. furthermore i was the one who wanted to join choir in the first place, so what can i complain about? and about the new comm, i don't dislike or hate the entire comm. i really don't. like our slutty secretary kendra is the coolshit, and matthew's funny in a weird way and erm, seekai should be quite okay too. oh my G, but there's this one person that i cannot fucking stand. and i don't need to say it out, its veeeeryy obvious. those that share common views with me say AYE.
i hear a million gazillion ayes.
good.
and even if she holds a high position and she's chosen because she presents herself well, has good views and shit, there's no fucking way i'm ever going to respect her. i know i sound stubborn and demanding because people have told me that i should at least try since what's done is done.
the thing is, i'm not gonna respect her but that doesn't mean i'm going to rebel against her.
it's a different thing.
i'm fine with following her instructions but i'll never look up to her and think, "wow, she's doing a great job." or "she's really a good leader."
i'm just trying to get past this two years of class and choir. although class is more heckcare then choir.
but i guess if nobody's gonna care, why should i?

oh, and i know ive changed. because i don't used to be so open about my negative feelings in front of the person. but i'm past that. i don't like it, because i've gotten more enemies instead of friends just cause i stop being a hypocrite.
wahlau, i wish things wouldn't change. so leceh.


going kbox this sat, and dance with huilin. love love love. can my weekends get any better than this?
oh, i know it can. HAHAHAHA. im just asking.


i'm bored.
CIAO!

p.s: art and maths tmr, another day of feeling like i don't give a damn and laughter and of course ahshuai. (((:
my hair better be nicer tmr. today looked too weird.

omg, heroes is awesome. OMG OMG OMG. yes, ive finished watching the whole of season one. yeah baby, yeah baby, yeah yeah yeah baby~
mmmm, and seasontwo's coming in september. SO LONGGGGG.....

omg, and like there's three hot guys in the whole show.
1) issac mendez
2) syler
3) peter petrelli.

HAHAHHAHAHAH. okay, they're not like HOT hot, but they're kinda good-looking what. and i can spend a whole day looking at their faces. imagine if someone fugly played their role. i wouldn't even bother finishing the series.

what am i saying. oh. i think i'm suffering from post heroes. ITS ALWAYS LIKE THAT, and now i can't sleep.

well now i'm gonna finish off supernatural and start on veronica mars. love love love <3

so, 'nuff said.
CIAO!
(:

hey i don't really remember which photos ive uploaded and which i've not. so i'm just gonna upload based on my current memory.
anw, heroes is still rockin'. love love love <3



yeah, that's all. gonna watch my HEROES. omg omg omg, issaz mendez is dead, damn that idiot syler. hope he dies. but actually, syler isnt bad looking either, he kinda reminds me of brendonurie, oh my lala. eh, where did that come from. jiayu issit you?!?!?!


whatever.
CIAO!

oh this is so retarded. i still don't know how to use lj. irritating.
but heroes is cheering me up. YAY (:  issac mendez is really cute.
((:

byebye. i havent been studying, just to let you guys know.
im flunking my midyears, oh im sure.

 something retarded again.
for all scorpios.





dumb stuff.
all also not very true.

omg i love doing surveys and weird quizzes.
here's one!!!!


1. Do you ever lie about your age?
- yeah, but only online when talking to 'unknown' people.
rmb naima/pok/ni? HAHAAAAAA.

2. Do you prefer "sensitive boys" or
"tough guys"?
- tough in what sense? i don't want an ego-istic boyfriend that's for sure.
and i don't want an oversensitive one either.
tough choice. ):

3. Do you prefer blonde or dark haired
guys?
- actually.......i have no preference.
as long as their hair are not bo bice's length.

4. Are you currently single?
- huh, duh.

5. How many things in your past do you
regret?
- too many to count.
that's sad, i know.

6. Do you have a best friend?
- i don't really know.....it gets kinda confusing sometimes. but yeah, i wish i had one.

7. What do you want to be when you
grow up?
- i wanted to be pretty, like damn chio.
a profession as a doctor sounded nice too.

8. Who was the last person you hugged?
- lmfao. my father?

9. Have you ever had your heart broken?
- i dont know. maybe....oh my g, i really dont know a lot of stuff.

10. Have you ever thought about having
plastic surgery?
- yeah. if given a chance, i would.
there's just too many things to get rid off.

11. Do you like your life?
- nuh-uh.
not one bit.

12. Do you shop at Hollister?
- eh uncle/auntie, i live in SINGAPORE uh. SINGAPORE~  (imitates indian advertisment)
WAHAHAHAHAHAH ((:

13. Has one of your friends ever stolen
a boyfriend from you?
- haha. never, because i never had a boyfriend long enough for them to steal.

14. Has one of your friends ever
stabbed you in the back?
- like duh.
i will never forgive them. call me bitch, whatever.
its not like i will shoot them in the head or something.

15. Do you prefer to be different or
be like any of your girlfriends?
- well, i'd like it if we don't have reeeallly different personalities.
but i dont think i'd like it if me and my girlfriends look and behave in the same manner.
that's be disgusting.

16. Do you have more friends that are
girls or boys?
- technically speaking, i have much more girlfriends than guys.
but i enjoy time with guys more. simply because guys need to be nicer to girls.
so, i can scream and yell, and they will never backstab me.
DUH .
but i still love my girlfriends. they're still da bomb. (:

17. How long have you had friendster?
- since sec2. canphylia reco-d me.

18. Have you ever cheated on someone?
- hell no.

19. Has anyone ever cheated on you?
- ):

20. Have you ever slapped a boy in the
face?
- hahaa, yeah. but it was like, a joke.
im damn boyish lah. paiseh, but slapping a boy is like telling him "hahaa, you're so funny."

21. What is one of your biggest fears?
- INSECTS. freak.
and speaking of which, today i wanted to fry eggs for my breakfast, and this big fat beige ugly lizard was sleeping at the sink. FROM 11am all the way till when i went home at 4pm. and it stayed that way till dad came home at 5.50pm. siao lizard.
oh, and erm, being alone too. (answering the qns)

22. Have you ever skipped class?
- like hello?
i was in the F class man. so like duh right?

23. Has anyone close to you ever passed
away?
- not yet. i wasnt close to my grandparents, so dont think that counts.

24. Have you ever cried yourself to
sleep?
- yeah. hahaa.

25. Have you ever not been able to get
someone out of your head?
- wahlau, yeah!
esp when its really fictional, like i would watch supernatural and jared padaleski would just not go away.
or that period of time when i watched 'devil beside you', and mike he/chuanyi got stuck too!!!

26. Do you believe in the saying "once
a cheater, always a cheater"?
- maybe. i don't know lah.

27. Have you ever had a good feeling
about something and it turned out you
were right?
-eh, nope. nothing i wants ever goes my way.
but ive got nothing to complain. at least i'm well fed and clothed.
not like those poor babys out there.

28. Do you ever wish you were famous?
- YEAH MAN.

29. Do u ever wish u were a man?
-EHHHHH, NO LAH! siao.
and i don't like it when people say i would "look hot if you're a guy."
not a compliment thankyou.

30. Do you think any men will open this
just because it's labeled "The Female
Survey"?
- really uh? then do i count as a male? because im not.




OMG, HEROES IS DAMN SWEET. so addictive. but the bloody network's lagging so it wont load. i'll watch the next few ones tmr then. ((:
issac mendez is hot man. !!!<3


CIAO!

naima says she can't go out the entire week, so she proposes the nais go out aft the last paper. WHEE, that will be something i'm looking forward too. ohshit lah, i just realised i might have choir practice on that day.
WAHLAU, fuck choir can. always dampen my mood and ruin my plans.
and to think that people actually ask me to submit designs in for the choirtee. i can't and i don't want to. how am i supposed to design for a choir that i absolutely feel nothing for? and i don't know the people, i don't know their taste and preference, so yeah, how am i suppose to design a spectacular design.
maybe somebody who's better than me will do it. i hope.
but on the other hand, isn't this a chance for me to prove to myself that i can do it? another step towards my career in fashion?
aiyoh, but at the same time, i don't even know what profession i wanna be in in the future. fashion designer? can i make it? it's not all glam and glitz and somehow, i don't think my design are creative enough. plus, i have my coursework to think about now.
mrs choo never says that my designs are nice, not even a "hm, not bad." it's always, 'this should be....that should be... look at my previous students, they did this...that...this...that. you should think of something more creative.....yadda yadda."
my figures are not that sensual yet, designs not as creative as wild enough to qualify for an A in 'A' level art.
so what now? haiyoh.
i really cannot bring myself to use materials like leafs or plastic bottles or whatever. i wanna design something in FABRIC. and that's not good enough for 'A' level coursework.
plus, i haven't even settled on a theme. right now, i'm considering over 'oriental vogue'. and i don't know how it will go.
i'll update when everything's settled.
but don't know when that will be huh.


been daydreaming the whole 2weeks, and i haven't started on midyr revision. MY MIDYR IS STARTING NEXT MON. oh fuck, what have i been thinking?
this is so fucking insane. i have no idea why i chose JCroute, and i can barely see myself in POLY either. so where does that leave me man.
and it's not like as if now jc students have a higher percentage into qualifying for uni admission. maybe business or whatever ain't that hard. but if i really wanted to move forward towards magazine editor shit, the only course available will be the communication and media one in NTU. that is fucking hard to get in okay, and even if you get shortlisted, you have to go through interviews.
I CANNOT HANDLE INTERVIEWS, esp aft the last one which left me thinking, "what the fuck."
so i'm in a dilemma. i feel so retarded. like as if i have no idea about my own goals and aspirations. whereas people (for eg) jiayu, already knows what she wants, although it ain't easy, but she knows where to go, what to study, and what to expect you know kinda stuff.
URGH. and if all it takes is to pia the whole year to study for As in order to get into the course i want, i would study. YET, i don't think i can handle that because my character is sloppy and lazy. try getting me to study for an entire day for the first step first luh hor.

eeeyer.
i'm forever rambling on and on about my own emo life/ stuff here. this is so not fun. i miss my own weird and retarded sense of humour back when i was in secondary school.
EEEEYEEEER.
aiyah, whatever.
gonna post some very very very long overdue-d photos. and it's from VERY LONG ago.
i'd better post it before i forget about it again.






i have a lot more to go. but then this bloody LJ server is fucking lag now so there is no way i can post up all the photos unless i don't sleep.


so CIAO!
till next time (:

just met up with kitty for a haircut, and it doesnt look any different. irritating, why cant my hair grow faster?

haiyoh.

OH MY GOD OH MY GOD!!!!!!
YAY, happy ending wor!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

omg, luckily it had a happy ending, or else i'll smash my computer screen. and their kiss, MMMMMM!
so hot, fiery and passionate. wahlau, cannot take it.
(((((:

i guess im still pissed off at the part where ahmon left xiaoyue. THAT IS SO IRRITATING. and if i was her, i would have slapped him and maybe kick his balls or something.
but, in the end they had a happy ending, so im happy tooo!!!

oh, and they had sex.
i thought like taiwan people are more conservative people, and even in singapore, we don't see people having pre-marital sex anyhow. however much singaporean couples are in love. and like, the way they kiss, zomg, i was feeling kinda weird watching.
i just cannot believe they had sex. WAHAHA.



oh,i just realised i never said who's ahmon and xiaoyue. miss lemon should know lah. after all, she was an avid fan.
i jsut finished watching 'devil beside you' , and it's damn fantastic. !

better go do my own stuff.
CIAO!


off to huan huan ai now!


wangchuanyi, hejunxiang, HERE I COOOOOMMMMEEEEE!!!!!




(:

knn, asshole, bastard, idiot, mofo, go to hell, irritating shit!!!!!
where got this kind of person one!!! how can he just leave her like this, and actually tell her not to wait for him?
his mother jiu duo pai uh? mother nia, mother dunwan also can what! duno is who at first keep teasing her, den when they together, he wants to leave her because he wants to go leave with his mother.
KNN LAH.
what kind of idiot is he? he no brain!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


AIYOOOHHH!!!! irritating irritating irritating!!!

hey you guys, i'm really sorry if this has caused inconvenience and stuff, but i'm using back my LJ back here.
i know its really dumb and fickle of me, and i should have made up my mind before telling you guys im moving.
real sorry kay, but i think LJ is still the best out of blogger and many others.
the xanga one will be used for like really really reaaaally discreet and personal stuff. so yeah, don't link that one, and don't spread the link too.
once again, soooooooo sorry!


well then, enjoy my new LJlayout. i'm off to finish off my CLEO.
(((:

huggies everyone (:


CIAO!

i was anticipating dmnchoir camp pretty much. okay, i anticipated it A LOT. so throughout the whole of TPchoir practice on friday, me and yanni were totally restless. we were like "why is the time so fucking slow?" and then, FINALLY, choir ended and both of us were practically flying out of our school.
BUT, to our horror, everything was so boring. omg, you cannot imagine the disappointment we felt can!
and no lah, the comm is not to be blamed cause its just that we had left choir for quite a long time and like, we are no longer the youngest alumni of dmnchoir. so that was kinda sad lah. and to add on, i didn't know any of the new juniors (cause apparently i haven't been going back to visit enough) so the whole night was irritatingly boring.
WELL, plus the fact that jeryuan,andre,inez didn't come, jiayu and hidayah had to go back early. so that leaves me with shingchun and yanni. the whole point of staying over is to stay up all night and crap till dawn! so if everybody's leaving and only the 3ofus left, then what's the point in staying right? i don't want to sleep kay!
oh oh, and i was so tired by the time sheila's practice with us was over. WAHLAU, drain all of my energy away. damnit.
after we decided to sit down and have our dinner first, there was a bloody COCKROACH in our KFC LAH!
wahlau. at first i thought jas was kidding me when i opened the lid. then she started saying, "no, i never bluff you, really." but she was so calm i thought it was just a joke.
UNTIL THIS BLOODY FUGLY BROWN BLACK THING WITH FEELERS AND REALLY DISGUSTING FACE CRAWLED OUT IN MY DIRECTION!
WAHLAU! i was soooooo traumatized by it lah!
but beggers cant be choosers, so we still ate our KFC. (please don't go ewww.. we were starving)
and well, after that we went home.

and we went back today again. pretty much nothing to say about. but we had talentime, and it was fun catching up with our old juniors and crap stuff. plus, we had free pizza!!

and here i am, back home j-ling.
jiayu's back from her europe trip and soon i'll be off to  pattaya soon anyway. budget airline. grrr~

whatever lah.
pictures posted in linky (:



CIAO!
KRISSY<3




(((:



and if yakai was to insult TPJCchoir any further, please dont' blame me for asking him to fuck off.
because that was what i wanted to say to his face yesterday.
and seriously, so what if MJCchoir got a gold? does that mean we have to worship them and kiss their feet?
go to hell lah uncle.


CIAO!

TO FRIENDS:  i've gotten a new journal, if ya wanna know the new link, sms me or IM me online. (:


and a new photo to brighten up your day. (:

im gonna leave behind livejournal, and maybe go back to blogger, unless i can find some other better place where its easy to change layout.
livejournal is fucking pissing me off man!


look at my new layout! what the shit!